april wrap up | a mix of spring depression and sarcasm

Hello everyone! My name is Jan and welcome back to another blog post  ◝(ᵔᵕᵔ)◜ ♥

I’ve lowkey disappeared off of the face of the earth because seasonal depression rlly do be a thing and I’ve been taking a hiatus off of social media so that my mental health could take a break but I reminded myself how much I loved blogging and making videos so I’m here to do just that 🙂 ♥

It’s finals season and I uploaded a cafe study with me to hold you accountable to study 😡 go watch it right now!!!

Anyways… without further ado, let’s get on with what I’ve read and loved in April

Books

In April I read about 7 books which is pretty impressive in my opinion because the most books I would read in a month would probably be about 4, so I’m just proud of myself in general 🙂

The Atlas Six by Olivie Blake

The Atlas Six was the first book that I finished in April after seeing it float around twitter for the longest time and… can I just say… what the actual heck was that… I ENJOYED IT DON’T GET ME WRONG BUT I felt like it was too big brained for me and I had no idea wtf was going on half of the time :(( I think I’m going to re-read it later this year when my brain if off dumb bitch autopilot.

One of the reasons why I picked The Atlas Six up was because of the stunning art I keep seeing float around twitter like look at it!!! Are you KIDDING me?!

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I also have a reading vlog regarding every single thought that ran through my head while reading this book! If you want to see me doing writing sprints with my friends, reading sprints with Ren, and complain in general, check out my reading vlog! I’ve been thinking about doing weekly reading vlogs and I really enjoy doing it 🙂

The Wicked King (The Folk of the Air, #2) by Holly Black

To be honest I have been taking my sweet time with this series after hearing my friend Ren read this series and I’ve been taking one month to finish one book and I think that my high for the fairy aesthetic has slowly faded away, but I still think this story was interesting enough! I don’t know what it is with me and toxic men with dark hair but I can’t stop reading about them!!

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Black Water Sister by Zen Cho

Last month I received an ARC to review Black Water Sister by Zen Cho and I absolutely ATE it up. A stressed zellenial fighting ghosts and bickering with the spirit of her hilarious Ah Ma? Sign me TF up!!! I reviewed this recently and the post is now up on my blog so be sure to check it out 🙂

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Lost in the Never Woods by Aiden Thomas

I love fairytale re-tellings (and I’m writing one right no) and my heart has a soft spot for Peter Pan and Wendy Darling as they have been childhood favorite characters of mine and the fact that I finally read a re-telling of my favorite duo made my soft heart become so much more softer. This re-telling was soft and refreshing and great twist to the Peter Pan story that I hold very dear to my heart. It was so cute and I honestly would d word for Peter Pan 😦

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The Grishaverse Trilogy by Leigh Bardugo

Seeing that the show was so close to premiering, I absolutely HAD to read the series before watching the show and I’m surprised that it’s taken me this long to do so since I was in love with YA fantasy when I was in high school. I know a lot of people say that this series was the worst and that the Six of Crows duology is SOOO much better but after reading this I couldn’t help but??? Enjoy it??? I really should’ve read this series before I read Six of Crows bc it helped so much with the world building and the magic system that I was so helplessly confused with in SOC. I can definitely see where people say that this series is “all right” but I think I liked it more than I thought I would? Can I just say F*CK the Darkling fr?? I don’t understand why people ship him and Alina LMAO. I honestly love Alina and Mal and I would d word for them 😦 A reading vlog is coming soon for this trilogy so be sure to keep an eye out for that !!!

Media ♡ 

I don’t think I consumed that many shows or anything in April except for binging two seasons of Grey’s Anatomy and the entire Shadow & Bone show in one sitting jjsfjakjsf

Grey’s Anatomy has always been a guilty pleasure show for me ever since I was in high school and since I was in the medical program back then, and re-watching this show now in my 20s makes me realize how much I missed this. Mark Sloan and Lexie Grey have my whole heart 😦

Other than Grey’s Anatomy I also binged the Netflix show Shadow & Bone after reading the Grishaverse trilogy and can I just say f*ck the Darkling me and the homies hate the Darkling!! I won’t lie that Ben Barnes is certainly attractive but I must say that my bias has got to be Jesper, I l word him so much ❤

Also I want to talk about the Crows!!! I love the Crows so much and seeing them in action made my heart so full. I truly think Freddie did an amazing job portraying the infamous Kaz Brekker. Jesper and Inej were amazing as well and I simply love with all my heart. Kit as Jesper was simply EVERYTHING!!! HE IS SO FUNNY!!!! I LOVE HIM!!!

Also the way the producers and writers set up the story for the Crows is like… amazing, it made me so excited for the second season. When Matthias and Nina were introduced bro… stop. I was always confused when Matthias first saw Nina in the Ice Court and started ch*king her and seeing the reason why Matthias did what he did… dude….

I still need to re-read Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom and a reading vlog will soon be up about that so be on the look out! 🙂

Personal ☼☽

Safe to say that April was a good month to me but of course me and my dumb ass needs my brain to mess up everything for me and put me in a emotionally draining rut. Sometimes I wish my brain could just turn off for once like PLS!!!

Since my brain has decided to decrease my seratonin levels, I’ve decided to take a smol break off of my bookish socials since I realized that place was toxic for my mental health and I was comparing myself to every single person I was friends with and I think??? that I’m in a better place now that I’m focusing on myself? WOW the things that could happen once you’re off of social media folks… it’s crazy I highly recommend it.

Taking time off of social media has led me to reading and writing more, I spent more time with the people I care about (being said the sarangbaes and my besties Shan, Ren, Kianna and Azeemzoom and I dressed up Lao New Year with my family and celebrated with them ) and I’ve been journaling almost every night my feelings so I don’t go to bed with too much in my head. I forgot how therapeutic journaling was and I highly recommend it to everyone who tends to get highly overwhelmed with everything.

I also dyed my hair for the first HAHA. This is where my mental health has led me to… and I really like it 😀

May has been slightly better, I’ve just been studying for finals so I don’t know if I’ll read as much as I want to. NCT Dream came back with a new album!! Everyone stream Hot Sauce for clear skin ❤

Thank you all for stopping by, I hope you’re well and okay ❤

Jan

hey there!

art credit (c) to mihodraws on tumblr!

welcome to my blog! this is my very first new blog post and i apologize if it’s messy or all over the place. i’m still trying to get used to this (T_T)

i thought i should start my very first blog post by talking a little bit more about me and my future plans + thoughts for my new blog since i’m very excited and eagar to get started ╰(*´︶`*)╯♥

so hello! hi, this is me, jan. my name is actually janetsa (pronounced ja-netsa) and i am a twenty year old (newbie) blogger who wants to share her love for books and all things literary and lifestyle ❤

a little bit more information about me is that i love to write!! writing has always been a passion of mine ever since i was kid. i loved writing short stories, creating fake worlds in my head, picturing myself as the main character (bc the mcs were always wh*te) in my favorite books and it’s always been a dream of mine to publish my very own. i’ve been reading and falling in love with books ever since i was 8-years-old and it all started in the fourth grade when the class decided to read percy jackson & the olympians.

to say that i literally grew up with percy jackson is crazy since i’m currently reading the very last (*sniff sniff*) book in the trials of apollo series and it’s making me kind of emotional since percy jackson and the greek gods have been comfort characters all throughout my childhood and teenage years. my little sister will never know the physical pain i went through waiting year after year for the next book and the actual anguish i went through after finishing the house of hades.

another fact is that i really love movies, tv shows, kdramas & kpop !

my favorite group ever is nct (T_T)

my ultimate biases are ten & taeyong ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ♡ 

i saw them for the very first time last year with my bestie ais (u might know her as peachnace) and we were supposed to see them again this year but miss rona ruined everything (T_T)

my next favorite group is red velvet (´▽`ʃƪ) ♥

my ultimate biases are joy and seulgi. they’re the first girl group i have ever stanned aside from twice and they have impacted my little gay heart ever since my friend ais introduced them to me.

a few of my favorite movies include detective pikachu, men in black, romeo & juliet, deadpool, spiderman: homecoming, love rosie and a bunch of other films i can’t think of rn lol. some of my favorite shows are euphoria, avatar: the last airbender, the 100, the umbrella academy, and teen wolf. some kdramas i really like are w, goblin, my first first love, it’s okay not to be okay, & extraordinary you.

what are some of your favorite shows?

i have a whole other list for my all time favorite books but i think i’ll put that in a separate blog post because the list can go on and on and i think i can gush over my favorite books and my favorite tropes in another blog post.

so. why did i start this blog?

well, i joined the book community a little over a month ago and i’ve always been on the edge of booktwt, booktube just looking at all the things they talk about and discuss- i sort of grew up watching booktube videos because i didn’t have many friends that read books. i had one (1) friend that i made online but that was pretty much it. books helped me not feel as lonely as i did and i was pretty much gushing and ranting to my friends (WHO DID NOT READ AT ALL) about books that they will never read and i just felt like i was talking to air. i always enjoyed watching and reading other people’s posts and discussions about books and their favorite angsty characters and characters that they want to punch in the face and i felt left out and i thought that it was finally time- to join the book community.

my friend and i have always kept to ourselves about the books we liked and now we both entered this awesome and loving community with other fellow booklovers and i finally feel at home.

it’s always been a dream of mine to publish my own books one day, i (currently) have two wips -one of them is a ya fantasy and the other is dark academia thriller/mystery- and i want to go through this writing adventure with other writers and booklovers to really see myself grow while writing them.

i’m excited to finally start blogging more, thank god i finally moved onto wordpress after being confined to blogger for most of the entire year but i hoped you enjoyed your stay here and i hope to see you back one again!

this has been jan (back once again!)

stay safe ❤